amanda@rethinkbpd.com

Keep On Going

Keep On Going
While I was gingerly jogging my 8th mile, I’m thinking to myself, why am I putting myself through this? I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. My muscles are letting me know I’m no longer young. I’m in pain. And then I remember that this pain will pass as soon as I stop running. My mind is telling me to just walk the rest. Stop running, my mind tells me. But I keep running.

 

I know there are other pains that are more difficult to alleviate. Suffering from a mental illness is hard to describe to those who’ve never experienced it. But I try and open myself up. I try to give others hope. I try and finish my 9th mile because I’ve been given a second — no third or fourth — chance at this life. This is why I run. Because I remember what it’s like not to be able to do anything but breathe. And even then, breathing was hard. Now don’t get me wrong — my life isn’t perfect — but I can run. I can do things. I can be there for other people. I can bring awareness to a long time misunderstood diagnosis. I can keep going and not become another statistic.

 

I can celebrate borderline personality disorder awareness month (May) because there are so many others out there, just like me, wanting to live a life worth living. In the next few days you’ll hear from me again. Join me in this effort to raise funds for BPD research through the Brain & Behavior Research Foundation. It’s why I run.

 

Don’t stop. Keep on going.

 

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2 Comment(s)
  • nicole hartley Posted June 28, 2016 11:33 am

    my daughter was diagnosed with BPD and I would like to understand it better.

  • Robin Kramer Posted July 31, 2016 2:42 pm

    Hope always

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