Tweet He told me that I have a soul, How does he know? What spirit came to move my life? Is there another way to go? – Les Miserables – What Have I Done (Valjean’s Soliloquy) I bit my lip. It was the only thing I could think...Read more
Tweet Surrender to what is. Let go of what was. Have faith in what will be.” – Sonia Ricotti We sit with our legs crossed on the couch, our forearms resting on our knees, palms up. We look like we are meditating with our eyes closed, but...Read more
By virtue of diagnosis, you are not alone. We struggle together and within that collective struggle, yes, there is a fight within us.
Tweet “Amanda,” my therapist asks, “what are you trying to tell me? You know I’m committed to working on this. What is it that you’re trying to say?” “I have all these voices in my head. I call them...Read more
Recovery for me? Well, I’m just starting to understand that my journey is not a failure. I’m starting to realize who I am: I’m someone who struggles… yet moves forward anyway. They are both a part of my identity. That’s the dialectic. I’m not passively waiting around for a cure or to magically get better. I’m doing what’s necessary to push me forward. Sometimes that’s all you can ask for.
Recovery is not only what treatment does to you but what you decide to do with the treatment you’ve been given.
Tweet I had the privilege of interviewing Dr. Peggilee Wupperman, a researcher and clinician who is associate professor at John Jay College/City University of New York, assistant clinical professor at Yale School of Medicine, and a senior...Read more
Tweet It was my ninth day at the inpatient unit. The doctors noted my progress but a part of me still wanted to feel, as Agatha Christie described, “wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable.” I clung desperately to depression. At the...Read more
Tweet It was a sticky evening in Penn Station and I was in a hurry to head back home. As I weaved in and out of the crowded subway station, a young woman sitting in the corner caught my eye. I glimpsed at her cardboard sign saying, ANYTHING HELPS...Read more
Tweet I brought the new therapist up to speed as we reviewed my diary card. An event happened, I was triggered, and the usual suspects made an appearance: low self-esteem, the idea I should not exist, suicidal thoughts. They all fed off of each...Read more
Tweet I wouldn’t call what I’m going through right now an episode. It hardly captures what happens on a day to day — sometimes hour to hour — basis. The difficulties I’ve been facing is a part of the reason I haven’t...Read more
Tweet I have an old friend that has been in my life for twenty years. He has always helped me sort out the many questions and confusions that constantly float in and around my head. What I do for him I sure don’t know, but I’m glad...Read more